understanding

as human being...
we cannot run from being angry..
most of the time we angry about things not going our way..
we usually would think...

if i can do like this why cant
they?

if i can help them why cant
they?

if i love them as they are why cant them
love me as i am?

there is where i though we as human were wrong..
we cannot expect other people to be like we are..
each individual in this world have their own unique attitude..
if i were highly patient it doesn't mean all people should be highly patient as me..
and just because they are out spoken doesn't mean i should be like them too..

we cannot blame other people for not thinking like we are..
we cannot mad at people for not behave like we are..
GOD created us differently for a reason...

if all people in this world have the same thinking..
there wont be so much technology..
there wont be competition...
there wont be so many industries...
there wont be many thing...

just because every one think and feel the same..
so there would only b one brand of shampoo..
there would be only one fashion industries..
there will only be one food factory..
and it would cause many people didn't have job..

so...before we mad because other people not thinking or feel the same..
we need to understand that each individual were different..
and we need to understand their attitude and behaviour..
so we wont expect much than what that person can provide..
with that hopefully we can avoid madness, angry and disappointed feeling on that person..

friends....

everyone need a friend in life..

friend for fun...

friend for business..

friend for sadness..

friend for everything...

sometime people determine each individual on how many friends he/she got..

is it really matter?..

yes its a good thing we have a lot of friends..

but were all of them will be with u when u need them the most?

not all..but just some of it will be there..

as for me..

i make friends with all...

no matter u are good or bad...

but when come to a really close friend..

ill choose...

but somehow..person that i choose sometime make me feel dissapointed..

where or how does it go wrong..

am i too demanding...? or..

they are not really the friends that i can rely on..?

~happy birthday~

060884

my dear beloved hubby nye birthday..

so this year.. 060809..

by hubby already 25years old...

have a long long wish for him..
may hubby dream come true..
wish u success in hubbynye career..
hope hubby jd kaye...
wish hubby nye garang2 hilang..heee :p
wish hubby long lasting youth..
wish hubby dpt wii...
wish hubby dpt kenzo power..
wish hubby dpt kete idaman..

wish hubby dpt umh impian..

wish hubby happy slalu...

dan...byk lg..tulis smpi esk pon x abis..

bby nk say sorry..
if birthday celebration this year not so much..
i dont even get to buy u proper present..or even a card..
sorry hubby...ill surely will get u something...

just a lil bit late...

sorry......

but surely u know i love u aite...

mmmmuuuaahhh!!!!!!

~missing~

i miss him so much...

try not too...

but he keep coming back to my mind....

back to home from office..
give all of my cat their meal...
still fells like wanna prepare for 5..
as if he still there...

GOD..
miss u damn hard owen..
hope u r doing well up there..
n rmmbr u always in my heart....
one n only male cat i ever had..
LOVE U...n MISS U even MORE!!!

LOST

about a year and a half ago...

ive found two cute lil kitten at my house..

they look so cold...

so i bring them up to my home..

1 male n 1 female..

having a thought of just to warm them up..

then wanna find anyone that want to make them as pet...

but....i couldnt..

my fren already like the female..

as for me...from start..

i hold the male one...

its in orange colour...

since i was little...

i never have male cat as a pet...

untill this one...

we name him 'owen'...

owen have this wonderfull eyes..

which full off emotion...

there are time his eyes telling his hungry..

there are time his eyes saying he want to be pampered..

there are even time his eyes telling he will be notty..

and most of the time his eyes make me love him more n more..

but...

i cant never see his eyes again..

never gonna see his running around the house...

gonna miss his voice....

n most of all..

gonna miss to hold him tight n just look into his eyes n talking to him...

he is a good listener...

24/07/09

the most sobbering day for me..

that is the date he has his last breath...

he died in hospital...

that is what i feel worst the most..

didnt got the chance to meet him one last time...

didnt got the chance to take care of him while his sick..

not being by his side while he is in pain....

most of all i feel guilty...

i blame myself for his death...

he could be still living now if i vaccine him ealier...

im so so SORRY owen...

i was about to vaccine u once i got my salary...

owen....

my thought were always with u..

my mind were always fill of your memory...

u r the best...

no other cat can replace your place..

u r one of a kind...

i love u so much...n i always will...

every night before i go to sleep..

i wish i will meet u in my dream....

hope u wanna see me...n forgive me...

i love u.....always...forever........

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~hubby~

next month kene cari housemate...
bincang2 ngn hubby..
pastu decide nk try tny intan...
intan ckp die pk dl...die x bg keputusan lg pon...
tp....esk pg time d anta bby g keje...
d da bg amanat...byk..

'bby jgn gatal2 nk ckp bby single'

'bby jgn minum klo d x de...tequila jedi coke beer...sume tu x leh..bleh wine cooler jek'

'bby jgn smoking klo d xde...'

'bby jgn kua lepak ikut intan lewat2..nnt sakit..'

heee..klaka jek...ape la nie...blum ape2 lg da de amanat...n bby gelak je sepanjang d ckp tu...heee...

family

family...

i believe i can consider myself as lucky..

i still have family that love n care for me..

compare to many many outside there that didnt have family..

i still got my mom and dad..

2brothers that i cared and looking after me..

a sister that always forgive n love me no matter wut..

im glad..

i know i didnt get the chance to spent time with them often..

even though i want to....

but just didnt get the chance..

im sorry...

i promise n tell my self..

once i have the job that i want..which bring me much more money..

i will do something for our family..

i know it seems hard..but ill try..

to my dad..

im sorry for not being able to go back as often as i should..

i want u to know i love n care fo u so much..

thank you for beeing so patient n understanding..

to my mom..

i always feel that im like u..

but sometimes u just being cold n i dont know wut should i do..

i know as u get older u will be more sensitife..

im sorry if i not be as a daughter that u wish i am..

im sorry...

i hope u always know that i love u so much...

to my sis..

i have so much fun with u..

when i first aways from home n go to university..

u were the person i miss so much..

i wish we could g back as before but i know we cnt..

due to u already have ur own family n responsibility..

at some point sometime i feel like im loosing u as my sis..

but when u came to my new house...

i feel we close again...

i hope u know i love u so much..

u were the on that i love the most in our family...

to my 2 bro..

we used to be closed..

but as time goes by it just wasnt there...

but we still near to each other..

hope to have more time spent with u guys...

i love u...

my hope here is..

to have at least once a month outing with by sis n bro..

hope it can be done soon...

hope so..