LOST

about a year and a half ago...

ive found two cute lil kitten at my house..

they look so cold...

so i bring them up to my home..

1 male n 1 female..

having a thought of just to warm them up..

then wanna find anyone that want to make them as pet...

but....i couldnt..

my fren already like the female..

as for me...from start..

i hold the male one...

its in orange colour...

since i was little...

i never have male cat as a pet...

untill this one...

we name him 'owen'...

owen have this wonderfull eyes..

which full off emotion...

there are time his eyes telling his hungry..

there are time his eyes saying he want to be pampered..

there are even time his eyes telling he will be notty..

and most of the time his eyes make me love him more n more..

but...

i cant never see his eyes again..

never gonna see his running around the house...

gonna miss his voice....

n most of all..

gonna miss to hold him tight n just look into his eyes n talking to him...

he is a good listener...

24/07/09

the most sobbering day for me..

that is the date he has his last breath...

he died in hospital...

that is what i feel worst the most..

didnt got the chance to meet him one last time...

didnt got the chance to take care of him while his sick..

not being by his side while he is in pain....

most of all i feel guilty...

i blame myself for his death...

he could be still living now if i vaccine him ealier...

im so so SORRY owen...

i was about to vaccine u once i got my salary...

owen....

my thought were always with u..

my mind were always fill of your memory...

u r the best...

no other cat can replace your place..

u r one of a kind...

i love u so much...n i always will...

every night before i go to sleep..

i wish i will meet u in my dream....

hope u wanna see me...n forgive me...

i love u.....always...forever........

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