~happy birthday~

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my dear beloved hubby nye birthday..

so this year.. 060809..

by hubby already 25years old...

have a long long wish for him..
may hubby dream come true..
wish u success in hubbynye career..
hope hubby jd kaye...
wish hubby nye garang2 hilang..heee :p
wish hubby long lasting youth..
wish hubby dpt wii...
wish hubby dpt kenzo power..
wish hubby dpt kete idaman..

wish hubby dpt umh impian..

wish hubby happy slalu...

dan...byk lg..tulis smpi esk pon x abis..

bby nk say sorry..
if birthday celebration this year not so much..
i dont even get to buy u proper present..or even a card..
sorry hubby...ill surely will get u something...

just a lil bit late...

sorry......

but surely u know i love u aite...

mmmmuuuaahhh!!!!!!

~missing~

i miss him so much...

try not too...

but he keep coming back to my mind....

back to home from office..
give all of my cat their meal...
still fells like wanna prepare for 5..
as if he still there...

GOD..
miss u damn hard owen..
hope u r doing well up there..
n rmmbr u always in my heart....
one n only male cat i ever had..
LOVE U...n MISS U even MORE!!!

LOST

about a year and a half ago...

ive found two cute lil kitten at my house..

they look so cold...

so i bring them up to my home..

1 male n 1 female..

having a thought of just to warm them up..

then wanna find anyone that want to make them as pet...

but....i couldnt..

my fren already like the female..

as for me...from start..

i hold the male one...

its in orange colour...

since i was little...

i never have male cat as a pet...

untill this one...

we name him 'owen'...

owen have this wonderfull eyes..

which full off emotion...

there are time his eyes telling his hungry..

there are time his eyes saying he want to be pampered..

there are even time his eyes telling he will be notty..

and most of the time his eyes make me love him more n more..

but...

i cant never see his eyes again..

never gonna see his running around the house...

gonna miss his voice....

n most of all..

gonna miss to hold him tight n just look into his eyes n talking to him...

he is a good listener...

24/07/09

the most sobbering day for me..

that is the date he has his last breath...

he died in hospital...

that is what i feel worst the most..

didnt got the chance to meet him one last time...

didnt got the chance to take care of him while his sick..

not being by his side while he is in pain....

most of all i feel guilty...

i blame myself for his death...

he could be still living now if i vaccine him ealier...

im so so SORRY owen...

i was about to vaccine u once i got my salary...

owen....

my thought were always with u..

my mind were always fill of your memory...

u r the best...

no other cat can replace your place..

u r one of a kind...

i love u so much...n i always will...

every night before i go to sleep..

i wish i will meet u in my dream....

hope u wanna see me...n forgive me...

i love u.....always...forever........

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~hubby~

next month kene cari housemate...
bincang2 ngn hubby..
pastu decide nk try tny intan...
intan ckp die pk dl...die x bg keputusan lg pon...
tp....esk pg time d anta bby g keje...
d da bg amanat...byk..

'bby jgn gatal2 nk ckp bby single'

'bby jgn minum klo d x de...tequila jedi coke beer...sume tu x leh..bleh wine cooler jek'

'bby jgn smoking klo d xde...'

'bby jgn kua lepak ikut intan lewat2..nnt sakit..'

heee..klaka jek...ape la nie...blum ape2 lg da de amanat...n bby gelak je sepanjang d ckp tu...heee...

family

family...

i believe i can consider myself as lucky..

i still have family that love n care for me..

compare to many many outside there that didnt have family..

i still got my mom and dad..

2brothers that i cared and looking after me..

a sister that always forgive n love me no matter wut..

im glad..

i know i didnt get the chance to spent time with them often..

even though i want to....

but just didnt get the chance..

im sorry...

i promise n tell my self..

once i have the job that i want..which bring me much more money..

i will do something for our family..

i know it seems hard..but ill try..

to my dad..

im sorry for not being able to go back as often as i should..

i want u to know i love n care fo u so much..

thank you for beeing so patient n understanding..

to my mom..

i always feel that im like u..

but sometimes u just being cold n i dont know wut should i do..

i know as u get older u will be more sensitife..

im sorry if i not be as a daughter that u wish i am..

im sorry...

i hope u always know that i love u so much...

to my sis..

i have so much fun with u..

when i first aways from home n go to university..

u were the person i miss so much..

i wish we could g back as before but i know we cnt..

due to u already have ur own family n responsibility..

at some point sometime i feel like im loosing u as my sis..

but when u came to my new house...

i feel we close again...

i hope u know i love u so much..

u were the on that i love the most in our family...

to my 2 bro..

we used to be closed..

but as time goes by it just wasnt there...

but we still near to each other..

hope to have more time spent with u guys...

i love u...

my hope here is..

to have at least once a month outing with by sis n bro..

hope it can be done soon...

hope so..

!!SUPRISE DONE!!

life is full of SUPRISES..

i often heard the qoute..

but..

rarely hang to it..

now...
it suprises me a lot..
how we usually thought

when we know someone around 6 to 7 years..

we believe we know that person well enough..

moreover if we

been living together..

face up and down in life and career together..

already feel like a family member...

known each other family well..

but still...

now..that just bcoz of someone..

someone who just show up 3 to 4month ago..

been controling her life..

manupulating her..

lie straight to her face...

playing with her heart/feeling...

bring her down...

but when she know all the lies..

she still treat that person well..

as if that person she know her whole life...

now...

i just have to tell myself..

im done with her...

she is on her own now...

i just cant take it anymore..

i love her so much...like my sister even more..

but when she can just simply say the mean word...

as if im no one/nothing....

its sad..but...

thats it...if u feels that bitch will be by your side

when things goin down and rough..

still want to believe all the lies...

then i wont be here anymore..

i cant take care of ur pride anymore..

its ur choice...

i wont say anything but i wont stop them either...

ITS UR LIFE...UR DECISION!

im no longer goin to listen and advice..

DONE!

WoRdS

what would u do if i took those WORD into..

then u couldnt make things new..

just by saying i love u.. when couple get into fight..

one of them will apologize..
usually some of the words are..

1) i'm really am sorry..

2) promise i wont do that again...

3) i wont make u cry again..

4) i love u and always will..u know that aite..

5) i wont lie to u..ill tell u everything...i mean EVERYTHING!

that is what we normally will heard or even said..

it was sweet..

but..

is it really going to be like what been promises..?

or the promises just gone by the wind

and....

before we notice it..

it happen again...